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Feeling Redundant!

What are you doing to try and earn God’s approval? Stop! God’s love and favour cannot be earned. He gives to us all this and more, because of who he is. God is full of grace.
I have been learning a lesson myself just recently. As things that i passionately enjoy doing for God are being stripped away from me and redundancy seems to have been setting in, discontent, frustration and deep sadness have impacted me. My questions to God have been:  “Why are you taking these things away from me when i do them for you?” and “Am i no longer wanted by you?”; “Have i nothing to give?”; “Have i displeased you so much that your favour now falls on those around me and misses me completely?” How self-centred i have been.
God does as he pleases and he does not desire me to try to earn his affections by being task-orientated. I have been desiring to do ‘this and that’ for God and to be great and ‘all out’ for him, that it seems my will has become a high priority. God wants me to know that he loves me even when i’m not doing stuff for him. In my state of redundancy i have thought about what little things i can bring and give to others as i still long to give back to God. In just giving where i can and listening to God while others are busy ‘doing’ i have realised that God can and does still use me. I am still significant to him whether i am ‘doing’ or just ‘resting’ in his presence. I can still serve him but this comes from a humility of knowing that it is in God’s power, strength and timing and not my own. The desire to give back out of a thankful heart is good and God knows the heart with all its good intentions and its wrong motives too.
So from now on i will try to be more of a listener and wait, like Mary sitting at Jesus’ feet and a little less like Martha who busied herself to please the Lord.

“Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” – Luke 10:41-42.


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