Archive for February, 2011

Sweet Revelation!

Oh what sweet revelation

that i finally do see,

and the many times i’ve blamed you,

saying you withheld from me.


Was my heart and mind so clouded,

even when your words i read,

that i couldn’t see the truth,

just the lies within my head?


But now you give me satisfaction

as you show my deepest part,

when i realise that you love me,

yet i’m numb within my heart.


All that time i craved to feel you, 

to experience you within,

demanding your love and attention,

i just couldn’t see my sin.


Was you treating me unfairly?

Was you distanced and unkind?

No, your love for me, unfailing,

now revealed to my duped mind.


But i see the bigger picture

as the truth to me you’ve shown

it is my heart that is lacking

with the love, to me unknown.


I have treated you with contempt,

kept the love inside for me,

very rarely sharing with you,

speaking words so carelessly.


Now i want to say i’m sorry,

you were right and i was wrong

you’re my Lord, my God, my Saviour

and to you i do belong.


And i thank you for your pure love,

i will trust you all the more,

and to you i lift my heart, Lord,

as you teach me to adore.


by MandeeJ

(Relevant verses – Heb.3:15; Psa.139:23-24; Eph.3:16-19)


Read Full Post »

Because You Love Me!

I feel warm right through and it’s rising,

suddenly i’m safe and secure,

because i know that you have always loved me,

so i’ll trust in you and endure.


Love’s sweet taste i drink as you fill me,

with your Spirit of truth you will guide,

your conviction i welcome so humbly,

as you teach me and walk by my side.


In your word i dwell and i seek you,

in your presence i wait patiently,

as you still me and pour peace within me,

from your well of life i drink deeply.


How i long to be closer and know you;

with the life you so freely give me

i desire to give you my all, Lord,

and follow you obediently.


You are Sovereign, i don’t understand Lord,

why you care for and think about me,

you deserve so much more than i give Lord,

to you belongs all the glory.


So to you i lift my praise Lord,

for you have set me free,

and not because i love you,

but because you love me.


by MandeeJ

Read Full Post »

Wearing the mask … the truth!

How often do you put on a happy face when deep inside you are hurting? Are there times when you will avoid someone or something because you can’t face the fear of rejection, failure or exposure? When was the last time you was free to truly be yourself in-front of others and of sober mind? Many people use alcohol as a way of feeling free to be themselves but why do we struggle to be who we are? Is it really because others will reject us or is it because we don’t like ourselves?

It is as though we are hiding from ourselves, scared of facing the truth about who we are. We live our daily lives either lying to others or lying to ourselves. The truth about our thoughts and feelings seem too hard to face; ‘I can’t do this job, i’ll only fail, just like the last time’; ‘He doesn’t love me, he doesn’t even like me any more, he’ll leave me like my last boyfriend or cheat on me because i’m unlovable’; ‘If they only knew what i have been doing and thinking they would never accept me, i’d be disowned, i feel so ashamed’. All these thoughts and feelings can come from things we have done or are doing wrong or things people have done to us. Either way it is sin – the lies in our thinking and feeling, the wrongs we have done, thought or had done to us – all of it is sin and we need to confess it to Jesus and repent (which means turn away from it).

“If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” (1 John 1:8-9)

If we want to be free to be ourselves then we need to confess our sins and become the very people that God has purposed us to be, loving who we are and accepting ourselves as God accepts us. We cannot accept and love ourselves without God. We need to be truthful with ourselves and with God. It is the only way to be truly free. Take off the mask that you are hiding behind and see the real you. Turn to Jesus who is ‘the way and the truth and the life’ and the ‘only way’ to God who is our true and loving Father. When you turn to Jesus ask him for the Holy Spirit who is the ‘Spirit of truth’ and he will guide you in your confession of sins so that you can truly experience the freedom that God wants you to have – that is to be you, loved, accepted, clean, forgiven, secure, joyful, etc.

Give up the mask and enjoy loving the new you when you turn to Jesus Christ, the Son of God, who died for us and took all of our sin on himself so that we could be clean, free and able to know the Living God who is our Father and Creator.

“For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” (John 3:16)

It is truly a miracle to have a relationship with God, to have him speak to you, love you and teach you his ways and to experience freedom from sins such as alcoholism, drug addiction, eating disorders, lies, cheating, depression – wrong beliefs/thinking, etc. God wants you to be free. He made you to be loved, accepted, free, beautiful, healthy, desired, lavished with affection and gifts. You are missing out on so much if you hide from him behind that mask. Be yourself before the Lord and let him set you free – he wants you – just turn to him.

Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” (Romans 8:1)

References taken from ‘The Holy Bible’ NIV & KJV 

Further reading:  Psalm 103; John’s Gospel (The New Testament); Genesis (The Old Testament).

Read Full Post »

It is so easy to get caught up in the negativity of thinking and feeling when things go wrong. It is only natural to focus on the bad stuff and how it is affecting us. However when we do this, when we keep seeing how problems are occuring and people are mistreating us and life doesn’t come up to our expectations and hopes, we can too easily miss God’s blessings for us.

A close family member of mine is feeling sad and mistreated by her son after an argument between them drove them apart. She feels that he should apologise for what he said and then all would be forgiven. While she waits for him to do this time is drifting past and the hurt within her is deepening. She is suffering as though he has died. This grieving process  may not come to a close for some time. She is not being hurt, tested or treated unfairly by God (we can be too quick to blame God for how others treat us), but she is being blessed in her time of grief. God uses the bad situations that we undergo and brings good out of them. The point that she is missing is that in her heartache and trials God is giving her a glimpse of the sufferings of Christ. Or to put it another way Christ knows exactly what she is going through because he too felt rejected, abandoned and wronged by those closest to him, the apostles. I am not saying it isn’t difficult and painful to go through such trials but i think we can miss an important blessing of knowing our Lord better.

“And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight” (Phil. 1:9)

I too have suffered loss & separation from loved ones, been wronged by them, criticised by them and deeply hurt by them. Whether it is people we know or those we don’t, we all suffer and cause suffering. The important thing to remember is that Jesus knows how you feel and that you are actually getting to know our Saviour in an amazingly intimate way. For some time i have been praying to know God better little realising how painful this could be. As the trials have come and i have turned to God in prayer asking him why these things could be allowed to happen, he has helped me to realise that the blessing is in seeing the identification with Jesus’ own life and his sufferings here on this earth. So that despite the pain and the hurt, i cope, because i am strengthened in the knowledge of God’s love for me and his compassion. I can rest knowing that Jesus overcome this world and it’s tribulations and his peace is with me. As long as i remain focused on him, trusting that he will lead me through and walk with me, knowing that i am not alone in the pain, relying on his strength, giving him all of me then i too will overcome.

“I have told you these things so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33)

We need to identify with Christ’s sufferings for us; stand firm on God’s promises; spend time in the word of God and in prayer and listen. God loves us, we are not alone in our struggles and we really are blessed more than we realise.

“Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.” (Rom. 5:3-4)

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” (Rom. 8:28)

For a deeper understanding of how you may be blessed through your sufferings and trials you might want to look at ‘The Beatitudes’ in Matthew 5.

Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.” (Matt. 5:3)

You could also check out the story of Paul being in chains for Christ in Philippians 1.

“being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus”  (Phil. 1:6)


All quotes above were taken from the Holy Bible – New International Version.

Read Full Post »